It came and went as such a blur. At 9:18 CST, Saturday, I looked around the vacated conference room of the Hyatt Regency Riverwalk Hotel in downtown San Antonio. I inhaled sharply, exhaled slowly, and thought, “holy shit, that just happened.”
Alright, guys, I did it. The nearly paralytic fear that gripped me for months as I built my presentation for my first national conference debut of my research… It’s done. As I walked back to my hotel, Hotel Havana, I could feel the adrenaline and tension leave my body. I harnessed that fear and rode it like Pegasus. And, I can objectively say, I knocked that out! Without introducing hubris, I am so damn happy with what I managed to do. It was not perfect, by any means, but really was en pointe and relevant and specific… And I was articulate and ON.
After a night of quesadillas with Manchego cheese, tacos of el pastor, and ceviche and mango margaritas and prickly pear margaritas, my cousins and I went up to the Texas Hill Country. And I sat on a blanket of blue bonnets. It’s as if they wanted to cheer me and chirp, “good job!”