Louisa May Alcott is attributed with stating the following: “I’m not afraid of storms, for I’m learning to sail my ship.”
Isn’t that good, in theory? As a PhD, I know all about theory and application. I also know I have not taken my ship far from port. As well as have incurred damage from drifting in too close to the shore and rocky bottoms. I think of Alcott’s confidence in self in the face of uncertainty and difficulty. It’s on my mind so much because I am preparing to make a huge, planned, life change that will require my on navigation and confidence in self.
I have an acrylic cube of 2″ X 2″ cards, upon all, are written would you rather type of questions. One card question has remained with me through the years. Something along the lines of: would you rather have a life of uncertainty and adventure or a life of quiet safety?
While a part of me is comforted with the idea of safety and security, I am almost always in some sort of unsettled state.
My truth is I have been ignoring a life I want to have for so long. For so long I have been settling and reassessing and resettling and finding myself in a very comfortable, outwardly appealing life in a rather comfortable middle class lifestyle. I work hard, and I have worked hard, to create a very stable, financially secure, socially satisfactory, generally healthy life.
I am not rejecting my life or my lifestyle. I am TRULY and earnestly grateful for my blessings. I do not, for a second, believe I am entitled to any of it.
I have a career in which I am able to contribute to a positive, life-altering, outcome for many people. The character of the work is uplifting for me. However, the nature of the work isn’t compatible for my long-term well-being.
So I’m making some changes.
Stepping far out from my comfort and radically blowing up this life I worked so hard to build.
What is the most frightening life decision you ventured into and how was your outcome?