What you’ll have of me after I journey to that great Death Star in the sky is an extremely accomplished daughter, a few books, and a picture of a stern-looking girl wearing some kind of metal bikini lounging on a giant drooling squid, behind a newscaster informing you of the passing of Princess Leia after a long battle with her head. ~Carrie Fisher
I think I can find good company with my belief and strong urge to say that 2016 can “suck it.” I’m really trying to be positive, y’all, I am! But, gaaaaaaaaah…. Like a bad relationship I can no longer accept, 2016 and I need to break up. Distance. ANd I had a rather trauma-less year. Politics aside – and whoooooooooah don’t get me started on the politics (this goes far beyond the Grand Cheeto Elect) – 2016 has seen the loss of so many greats. Today, I lost a particularly beloved “hero.” Really, 2016? In addition to David Bowie, Prince, and George Michael, you also mean we have to say “Goodbye Carrie Fisher?” Gaaaah! She was as young as my dad when he died. 60… is young. I lost my aunt two weeks ago to a heart attack, one from which she never regained consciousness. I’m taking this particular loss pretty hard.
As many Gen X young girls and then their daughters after them, I donned my cinnamon bun buns and long white gown for Halloween and many days before and after. Princess Leia was my first fan girl moment. She was fierce and spunky, if spunky means the ability to strangle the most hideous Jabba! Badass, more like. Who else could have spewed, “why, you stuck up, half-witted, scruffy-looking Nerf herder” as well as Carrie Fisher?
As I grew from a little girl to a young woman and on, Carrie Fisher continued to inspire me. I wished I could be as audacious, talented, and full of such brilliant wit as her. Whether captivating me with her sharply insightful novels and stage production or causing me to cry tears of hysterical delight by bringing Gary to her interviews, her genius and talents filled my life. She was a brilliant author. Postcards From the Edge was, and still is, one of my favorite books AND movies. I’m not only awed by her creative brilliance. Her advocacy for mental illness, in particular bipolar disorder, a condition which I have seen affect my family first hand.
If you are feeling as forlorn as me, sit down and pull up a cup of tea with me. Here are some of my favorite quotes from Carrie Fisher to share with you:
Instant gratification takes too long.
There is no point at which you can say, “Well, I’m successful now. I might as well take a nap.”
I rarely cry. I save my feelings up inside me like I have something more specific in mind for them. I am waiting for the exact perfect situationand then BOOM! I’ll explode in a light show of feeling and emotion – a pinata stuffed with tender nuances and pent-up passions.
Sometimes you can only find Heaven by slowly backing away from Hell.
Resentment is like drinking a poison and waiting for the other person to die.
There’s no room for demons when you’re self-possessed.
What worries me is, what if this guy is really the one for me and I just haven’t had enough therapy yet for me to be comfortable with having found him.
There are two things that I know for certain guys are good for: pushing swings and killing insects.
It’s important to be able to distinguish the difference between a problem and an inconvenience.
I feel I’m very sane about how crazy I am.
Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.
As for saying having to say “Goodbye Carrie Fisher,” “I’d just as soon kiss a Wookie.” But, it’s not up to me.